Monday, May 22, 2006

Sasha Kiarra

Sky is dawning grey...
Makes me think of you,
All you hopes, your dreams...
The life that was inside of you.
That will never be...
Runs like water, drifting down a stream
The memory the dream.
Are you happy now?
Will the skies pour down my pain...
Tell me please now how...
This was meant to be,
Cuz I can't stop feelin all this pain.
Little fingers, little toes...
Eyes so wide and bright...
The last night ever, and I held you tight...
It was as tho you knew.
A Mothers love, can never be squealched.
Nothin stops the pain,
Nothin stops the joy
One last time to hold you...to feel you next to me.
One last time to hold you...before I set you free.
God never promises forever.
Such a short little while.
God took away forever...
Tho he left you with a smile...
O dear god...
Take away my insides, ravished me with pain.
Every day that goes by, I see you
Picture how you've grown...
A little of your brothers...
Maybe your sisters wild hair...
Would you drive us crazy,
It'd be worth it for you my dear...
A mothers love never let's go...no matter where you've gone
you should know
I am here.
Holdin on, keepin you strong...
Sending everything to wherever you've gone.
Nothing but guilt to fill me now....
Tho they said nothing could have been done.
Nothin but guilt shines,
On a mother who can't protect her own...
Can't be undone, just carry forward...
Do you feel me callin you?
Can't be undone, just carry onward...
But I still think of you.
Wishin you
Would think of me too...
I carry on.

Wow Sasha, it has been three years today, and yet still feels like yesterday... Wherever you have gone, we still think of you always...Love you forever...

Mom

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

So what do you think?
Have I got the aptitude to make it as a poet,
Or do I suck

You know, that would fit actually...
Very comfortably, If I could sit around and write and get paid for it
A fat pay check too
Cuz I deserve one
Hell doesn't every body.

Hey everyone has their dreams right?
Trouble is...
I have had this immense writers block lately and can't figure what to write about
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Anyway... how come nobody comments in here...
I suck:(

Hey and don't forget I am a wicked awesome psychic who takes paypal for payments....
drakkeal@hotmail.com to make your arrangements....
subject line re:psychic
Fleeting, whimsical, ever changing
Ranging like tides brought out from sea.
Fantasy and fairy tale
A hologram, a wave
A vision of rainbow clouds and godswept gardens
And boats, come to carry me away
Where is the pot of gold,
At the edge of the rainbow?
When all the rain has gone?

A mirage inside oasis...
The hardcore edge lies gone.
Left open, simply floating,
Doors opened now cannot be undone
Floating away inside tomorrow
and suddenly she yawns...
I think I've found the edge of a rainbow
I think I'm ready to begin
I'm open now, in ways I have never been..

Goodbye to my dream...
Sunset hued Damask, and Darkened Shadow...
White Lace, red linnen...
And the fragrance of the roses.
Dripping at my feet.

So sweet, the goodbye, sweet, precious life juices
Given forth from throbbing veins.
Like silken nectar, cast lithely, on horizons...
Where halos, fall remade...

Into this dark night, where we fly, untithered...
Soft shadow only remains,
Unchained, set free...
Forever honored thy remains.

These soft goodbyes...

Monday, May 15, 2006

A Mother's Love
So soft and delicate,
morning sunrise, dew drip roses
Faintly smiling down
Upon a summers dawn.
Against slumbered forms, slumped quietly.
Poetic in their shape and size, and the innocent irony..
Which plays softly, against a flurry of activity flooded behind lidded eyes.

A Mother's Love
Always rememered
Deep down inside,
Before the heart races, and the mind clouds,
With all of her failures and let downs....as she frantically tries
Desperate to remember, each, tiny detail, of where she has come....
Sometimes distant, as in winter...
Sometimes Bitter...
Sometimes reminding you, when you need it...to find the strength alone
Always encouraging, believe, in yourself...and allways there to remind you...

Of a Mother's love, so deeply connected, no matter how small
Or how far, be it time and years...to space and distance...
To each child, she grants, a small piece of her soul..
Reflected across the universe, like light waves, and stars,
With which she carries, each tiny scrape, each little fall, in sacred sacrifice....
To bear with you, to feel your losses and joys, to take your pain,
And let it be hers, instead, to take your sickness....
To give you long life, good health

A Mothers Love
Needs be strong, silent, daring, courageous, alone and can never
Let go, not be udone.
Not death can seperate nor time can part...nor are you ever alone,
For when that part of us, which is human and mortal and forgetful
Falls asleep, That which is unconditional, is only that much more
Free, to hover over, and watch, and guide, and support
If only, just pease remember...
How I taught you to call^^

Thursday, May 11, 2006

I can feel it when you touch me
So soft inside...
Slippin away down golden gravel.
What have you done?
What would I be without the shadows...

Soft cold, so cool...
Inside the shadows,
Melting the stone.
A heart so alone.

Never let go, that creepin feelin..
Windin a home,
Through gloom and stone...
What have you done?
The stone cannot be melted.

Cry tears of joy...
My god it hurts to be alive.
Ah this pain, so fresh and alive.
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