Recently, I gave a friend of mine the homework of coming up with a list of ten things, ten things this friend must find that she likes about herself.I thought this posting would maybe help her along...Ten Things I like about me:1. My endurance, focus, and patience....
When first I had gone looking for it, I wasn't very patient at all, now I have learnt, with patience and preserverance...good things will come.2. My healing and intuition.
This at first, i had found to be somewhat of a curse, and didn't like what it brought to me, my unique skills and abilities, brought nothing to me but pain, and isolation.
As one who is very sensitive, to energy, and people's moods and aura's, I took it all very personally, and learnt a low self-esteem. I felt that I did not belong, and was not well liked.
I learned instead to be alone.
When in a position faced by society, I hide who I am, or used to anyway...Because it always led to rejection and hurt. I did this with my friends, and most importantly, did this with my family...
with anyone close to me. It was better not to let you know then experience your displeasure.
I became used to being a fuck up in the eyes of everyone around me.
The unique thing that comes with this perspective, is as soon as you have convinced yourself, that no one likes you, and everyone rejects you, it doesn't matter anymore.
It just doesn't matter what they think.
This is how that I found the freedom to find myself again.
This is why I sometimes may come off rude, or defensive...the point is, it doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't matter what you think.
From the lowest point possible to be...I found me...
This is what gave me my healing and my intuition.
I am proud of what I have become.3. My ability to suffer greatly, and still learn to thrive, becoming more then survival, and finding out the deeper qualities of life, hanging on when nothing seems left anymore, and bouncing back to be whole again. Self sustanaince.
Again, I know there may be differencing of opinions in this matter...but as I have stated rather clearly above...I really don't give a fuck, when I fell, there was no one to lower me down.
When I picked myself up, there was no one to lean on. When it matters the most, we have only ourselves... So? by whose judgements, should I hold my lifes acclaim?
Remember the story of Henny Penny and who shall help me make the Bread?4. My ability for forgiveness.
I have looked deeply into the souls of those who would harm me...and found only their pain. I have walked more then a mile in darkness...and felt within myself the same.
There is no such thing as no forgiving. I see your soul, and who and what you are, even if you will never change, it is the beauty of your destruction, and the forces with wich you carry, that allows us to grow and overcome, allows us to rise to the challenge, and face our own darkness...
Allows us to play out the great human game.5. My strength and my passion.
These things are what motivates me to survive. Again there are those of you who would disagree entirely, ask my husband, for he claims I haven't any at all...6. I love my eyes. They are cool7. My incessantly Inquisitive nature, that drive that makes me need to know and want to know, more, how and why
I am always learning and always growing.8. My humbleness
This is what makes it possible for me to truly connect with other people, and help make a difference in their lives9. My ability to walk alone, and in so doing, find all of the things that I love10. The depth of my soulAlso I was given the homework of finding three things about each day, that I was most succesful with, and pleased with, I will not be doing that here.However, Here, I shall make a listing of my 10 greatest accomplishments.These are easy...They are...1. Connor Arkady William Paul McNeill2. Emerald Ivy McNeill3. Cassandra Michelle McNeill4. Sasha Kiarra McNeill5. Zachary Ryan McNeill6. Living the last 10 years with Marc7. Surviving from about the age of 9 on... this, as far as I can tell, was the beginning of my dark journey, here in this life.8. Being rated as one of the top psychics in Canada9. Warring against our federal government and winning10. The fact that through it all, my sense of humanity has survived, and I am still ready willing and able to work towards my own healing, my healings for the planet, and yet connect with ppl on an individual level, giving of myself and offering, help, assistance, and connections, when and where I can.This my friends is truly a miracle